Sydney Australia <3

Its been a full year and I am missing every moment of it.

There has been a lot of thing on going for me.

The endless BBQ's , late night movies , acoustic cafes , Japanese dinners and loads more.

Every weekend I have something on and well honestly I want to hit the books but I can't.

By the way my mum is not amused I came back at 3am last saturday , stoned.

and getting drenched in ice cold water is fun (:

Will blog more often I hope :D

The Converse Bestfriend.


Almost empty and unfeeling on the inside.

I am confused.



On the other hand.

I did NOT get chosen for NS * jumps for joy and then gets stuck*

But then again 3 of my bestfriends got it D :

So because my Bajet Mahal bestfriend got it , I actually went and joined them for football for my first time in like what 5 years?

and yeah I actually enjoyed it :D

Next up is moar rock climbing.

LIM SAKAI YOU GOT ME INTO THE ADRENALINE RUSH AND I WANT MORE :D

Will be starting rock climbing with Lim Sakai soon.

OH Me with no proper hands and feet coordinations and is a pure klutz and a menace is now attempting to learn drums :D

and today is there is a bit of hope in me appeasing my mother , I will be see-ing Helena :D

BTW today is July 4th ):

I'll do a proper postings for it , I promise.

POSTNOTE - JANGAN ASK ME WHY AM I SO EMO.

Its one of my first shots this year and it means everything. Seriously.

Today not only I feel happy , moved , touched but more importantly there is a part of me that feels scared and sad.

For the whole week we did the PEERS Haunted House for Hari Koperasi.
That one week was the happiest week in my entire secondary school life.

In that one week I felt that all of us really bonded as one big happy family.
I miss the moments where we were running around the Music Room , carrying tables , setting up the cloths , making the room all dark and creepy while listening to OAG's Generasiku.

More importantly my bestfriend was there along with my other rakansekapalamasukair (:

I don't know If I will ever have these moments again in the future.

The future seems to be a blur to me.

I don't know what to expect or what

I'm scared...

I'm afraid of loosing my friends that I hold so close to my heart.

I know that with Facebook , Myspace , MSN and whatsoever we will keep in touch.
But its different.
How can one take the presence of a computer and compared to the actual person.

Bestfriends.
My brothers from another mother.
They keep me insane when I am make sane (:

Like I told Syahril and Amirun.
I want everything to be as it is after SPM
I've seen friendships fall apart after SPM.
It was like ' I don't see you in school anymore , therefore I don't need to be friends'
I don't want that EVER to happen.

In other words you can say that I am afraid of growing up.
I just can't find the words to end it with.
So I shall end this post by calling up Amirun and ending it with these 2 song lyrics.

Rooftops by The Lost Prophets

When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say, we've had our fun

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

We're standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

All the love I've met
I have no regrets
If it all ends now, I'm set

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

We're standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops

Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll, listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found

Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops

Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll, listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found

Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your

Generasiku by OAG

pagi terjaga ku dari mimpi
terasa hati senang sekali
pasti dunia ku yang punya di hari ini
bersama kawan-kawan ku pergi
ketawa riang senang hati
indahnya dunia ketika kita muda remaja

segalanya dalam genggaman
walau apa pun tak kan menjadi halangan
hidup ini setia menanti
generasiku bersinar bagai mentari
oooo.....16X
nanana

malam ini bertemu di pesta
berdebar membalas senyumannya
manisnya oh jatuh cinta kali pertama
bersama menitiskan impian
cinta, cita-cita dan harapan
di usia ini... tiada yang tak mungkin
oh sayang

segalanya dalam genggaman
walau apa pun tak kan menjadi halangan
hidup ini setia menanti
generasiku bersinar bagai mentari
jangan gentar mengejar mimpi
yakin berani percaya diri
dan mula dengan hello
ooo...oooo
ooo...oooo

jangan takut jatuh ke bumi
bingkas bangun melangkah lagi
ke depan, lari dan terbang menuju bintang
hanya kau saja yang bisa menentu
arah hidupmu yeah...
oooo.....16X

pagi terjaga ku dari mimpi
terasa hati senang sekali
indahnya dunia ketika kita muda remaja

segalanya dalam genggaman
walau apa pun tak kan menjadi halangan
hidup ini setia menanti
generasiku bersinar bagai mentari

segalanya dalam genggaman
walau apa pun tak kan menjadi halangan
hidup ini setia menanti
generasiku bersinar bagai mentari
oooo.....16X

segalanya dalam genggaman(oooo...)
hidup ini...
generasiku...




The lyrics just screams out so much.

Okay something went wrong with my new layout so I had to revert back to this

Will blog about Antarabudaya , Mamaks , New Car and what nots soon.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE






PS - Helena.
Thnks for the advice and as you know right my temper is often flaring up ):

I cannot take this shit anymore.
Who the fucking hell do you think you are?

I mean look at you.
You are fat and ugly and have you even looked in a mirror lately.

Your mouth is so rotten that it belongs to a corpse.

You have no ethics or integrity.

You know NOTHING of manners and social behavior.

Yet you dare to make snide comments about me and me alone?

HOW IRONIC.

What about you there standing by the side , so called BBQ king?

Laughing and making more snide comments about EVERYTHING I do.

When I do something you complain so why don't you do it?

When it is your turn to do it , you blatantly deny ANY form of responsibility associating you with it.

What is your problem cause I cannot decipher you.

You complain yet when its your turn to rise to the occasion you deny.

Do you people get a kick from being so close minded?

It is not my fault that I am this way.
How old do you think you are?
Pre K?
Still with the jokes and the teasing and name calling.

Do you think that you are so big?
Are you a gangster leader of whatsoever?
Do you think that some of your so called friends want to be near you?
They only do that cause you are fucking annoying and riding on their tail feathers


Dig deep and hard and maybe someday that you would understand that there is life beyond online games and being a fascist.

Your point of view is medieval
Your point of view is myopic
You only think that the world is made of prefects like you.
I wonder what would happen when that world crumbles.

Do you really enjoy living a life so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where your heart should be and you are losing control it.

Do you really enjoy being a robot?
Cause there's a world beyond your myopic views and online games.

I do not see the point with you living so close mindfully.

If you are happy that way then so help me I will satisfy your sick satisfaction by fucking off.

Fuck you. Fuck you very very much.



I call this one Idiots In Love :D


I have yet again outsmarted myself AGAIN by loosing my phone AGAIN

Yesh I have lost my phone once again this time with more drama.

It fell off a roller coaster , crashed into a million pieces and its corpse never again to be seen.

It fell cause I didn't wanted to sit next to Kritz on EuroExpress cause lets face it I do not want to be crushed so I sat at the back on the left side

My phone was in the left side pocket.

So when the coaster swerved , so did my phone = . = "

Conclusion is that my phone is somewhere lost in Genting , crushed into a million pieces and heck I cannot even find the corpse of it.


On the bright side , gate crashed not only Kritz's but also Rachel's family vacation.

Called Larissa to tell her about my epic phone issues and she told me Rachel was here so we decided to meet up and tag along her family.

Her little brother damn epic and semangated one I tell you

Cause it was 5 mins to closing time already and I wanted to go on Space Shot another time so I asked the Chin's whether or not they want to go for it.

No one wanted except Daniel ( her little brother ) so we faster run up to there la.

They said it was close but thanks to our pestering and all they opened for us :D

Then after that went to Bowling thanks to Uncle Stephen who paid for me :D

Bowling till around 11-ish then went jalan-jalan at First World then cannot tahan already go back Highlands Hotel to whore the free WiFi

I was supposed to do English Literature homework but I cannot tahan , must go Facebook on Itouch :D

Spent only RM80 cause well Uncle Yeoh paid for all my meals and Uncle Stephen paid for bowling.

I am still so dizzy from all the rides so I am off to bed AGAIN

PS - Waiting for my aunty's old phone ):